Prayer

Prayer is really difficult for me. I forget to do it. I forget that it's real and I'm really reaching out to an all powerful, all-knowing God.  I can't tell you how many times that I have prayed and then thought, "Well that was nice. It helped me to be real about this situation. I don't think anything will change about the situation, but at least I am now calm." And then something would happen that was totally not in my control and I would realize that God was working.  Satan is always at work trying to "steal, kill and destroy" and he puts so many lies in my head about what kind of an idiot I am and how stupid I am to believe in something that's not real. I should be on my knees 24-7 praying just trying to fight off this murderer that's constantly trying to attack. I need prayer from people that I will learn how to be a constant prayer warrior. That I would talk to God about things going on in my life that only He can control and that I will trust Him to work it out for the good of all people, not just me. Is there anyone out there who will pray for me? Pray with me?

I need prayer and I need to pray.