I have not always understood how I could glorify God in everything I did. I mean...how did it glorify God that I was eating and drinking?? That's just silly. haha...but I'm coming to a more full understanding of what that means now. I did not always understand how to set priorities before, either....and I'm getting a better grasp of that now....God always = #1. If I ever felt that he wasn't #1...then I knew my job...to get Him back there. I am a girl of many passions....and there is a reason that I am passionate about all of them. The reason I am passionate about God is because I see truth in His message. The reason I am passionate about Jazz is because it's part of my family history and my mom always encouraged the gift that she said God had given me (didn't get that then either, but I trusted that my mom probably knew a little more than me). The most important thing was to remember truth. The truth was found in God's word to us: The Bible. There are ten commandments in the Bible and one of those is one that I broke recently. I found myself in a snowball of sin that took me to a huge state of confusion. I was lost. I had no God. I had a desire to not know Him. I had a desire to not run after him. I was in a field all by myself, and no shepherd to rescue me.
Or so I thought.
I continued in my lost state. I kept hold of the thing that I wanted and tried to make it work the way I wanted it to. I forgot about total surrender and how important that was. I had my priorities all messed up...and the reason I know that...is because God wasn't first. If He was...then why did I not believe in Him? Why was I not letting Him write my story? I forgot that I was permitted to do everything I wanted...but that not everything was beneficial. I forgot the promise that was given to me to by Him to work everything out for my good if I just loved Him. I forgot that Jazz was NOT supposed to be my #1 Passion. I was never told that I was not allowed to do Jazz. But I started loving Jazz...more than I loved Jesus. I loved jazz so much that I would do anything to make it to the top...even if the Lord didn't want me at the top (like I had control over that...haha...silly me). I AM permitted to sing Jazz. However, when it takes the centerpiece of my heart...I am NOT permitted. I have sinned against God when I allow that...because as Michael Youssef said, "An idol is anything or anyone who occupies the centerpiece of your heart". My snowball of sin had been sparked by one of the "easiest" commandments to follow. I mean, you would know if you weren't putting God first, right? haha...not so easy. Thankfully, God is faithful, always good and ALWAYS extends grace to me if I accept it. He showed me through many different things that I needed His grace and so I am taking a few steps back to reconfigure my priorities and I'm allowing Him to take the center of my heart again.
In all of this, I have learned that my life is not wasted when I'm doing what I'm doing to glorify God. I'm not wasting my time on things that don't honor Him. I glorify God when I keep Him first and keep His commands to the best that I can in a sinful world. Therefore, I will glorify him in my eating and my drinking and by allowing him to sanctify me.
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